Today I feel all broken and depressed. Of course it is partly yesterdays late night and the gymn beforehand besides Martha’s wishes. – Phoned Vin. too. He will be off for his holiday next week. In this too I feel at loss. For every nights is he booked but he “might be free” on Friday when we might…

Mother still unwell, or rather worse. – Vin. ‘phoned me at noon, we had an interminable talk. It seems he was looking for me everywhere in the Opera House, except just in front of his nose. Characteristic. We won’t have much of a chance to meet nowadays, and it is better too, I think for he has a…

Was in town in private matters mostly this morning. Changed my funny yellow hat to a modest, matter of fact solid blue straw hat of which most people will surely approve. ‘Phoned Vin. at noon he told me he had a Scout’s meeting this evening so wasn’t free, would meet me before that however. So I…

Vin. darling phoned me. Somehow I was certain he wouldn’t think of me. He was on a two day’s  excursion for the holidays. – I do wonder. I mean to make an end to this unsatisfactory position of mine. Either he must mean more to me, or rather the reverse or better not to meet until I get over the…

Had to do in town, was at Cica’s too and heard that they were to be off for Kenderes the very day. She was out I couldn’t wait for her return so just left a message. As my cough was worse than ever decided to have my lungs examined if possible and being near the place went to see Vin. He nearly had…

Had to do in town again and took the “espresso” to Cica at the same time. Didn’t expect to go in, but they were just home from the registrar’s office + there was some company. Was invited to go in. Met the two best men also. The young couple was awfully happy naturally. Jancsi doesn’t look at all…

Meant to ring up Leon but didn’t. On the afterthought, it was him who promised to ring me up. Most shocking. The horrid fellow continues to forget his promises to me. I suppose I ought to feel awfully hurt etc. I don’t care the least on the other hand. Complete indifference. Meant to phone Vin too,…

In town again, had to go to Martha’s too, so I had to cut the Red Cross affair. Received a free ticket from Malert (?). For Dad as I am to go on Sunday. Spoke with Vin. on the phone. A most unsatisfactory talk too. I’m afraid I was worse than ever and seem to have drawn out the worse from him too.…

A lot to do in the office, people coming in one after the other, sometimes three at the same time. Really we ought to have two offices, one for waiting. Gizi ‘phoned too, asking about this evenings invitation to Martha’s. Told her to expect the worse on account of building begin in … . … (sic!) Was…

Had to do in town in the morning. Was up at the German Embassy on account of Nora. A funny little man received me and talked incessantly for at least 15 minutes. By the end of it I made him realize that I wasn’t and had no inertia to be a German as he supposed me of  being. It was good fun. The…