Vin. darling phoned me. Somehow I was certain he wouldn’t think of me. He was on a two day’s  excursion for the holidays. – I do wonder. I mean to make an end to this unsatisfactory position of mine. Either he must mean more to me, or rather the reverse or better not to meet until I get over the affair which means complete break. He must see my point. I fervently hope I won’t be a fool to forget my beautiful resolutions as soon as I see him. It would be the so romantic feminine inconsequence to be sure the luxury of which I can’t afford however. I have been an utter fool so far