Was quite ill this morning. Had to lie down and leave the office. Such a thing didn’t happen to me in the last nine years. I don’t know if it is indigestion or just nerves. Or both. I went to the cooking course though but felt most shaky.

According to appointment I went to an early cinema. When coming out I expected to find Leon there but he wasn’t. I returned a few times in vain. Tried to phone first in vain, later the apparate got mad somehow and swallowed my money at last. So I gave it up in the end and returned home thoroughly…

It was pouring yesterday and we didn’t meet with Leon though we thought to do so. When I spoke with him at night however I had to find out that he wasn’t out either. I won’t do such mad things ever for anyone again. Tonight’s meeting was slightly different from what we planned at least he. I rang…

Phoned Cica today as it is her birthday. Promised to visit her tomorrow. Or next week. We made a lovely caramel pudding tonight with caramel sauce. The filled eggs were very good too. One of best menus.

A busy day. I had to go the District Committee on account of our machines. Had to wait for ages for one of the engineers. When arriving home Bözsi, whom I made friends with at the cooking course, ‘phoned me with the astonishing news that they were separating with her husband. As she seemed to be the…

Being quite curious how did it happen on Saturday, I rang up Leon very early. He couldn’t speak much being in hurry(?), just told me that his brother was called in to military service in spite of being a 50 percent invalid and having gone through a serious operation quite recently. They were trying…

The usual Sunday. Went to confession which did a lot of good. Never again will I do anything like happened in my “dark” past. Couldn’t speak with Leon all day. I’m fed up with the man. Saw Azurexpress in the Kamara in the…

Was awfully hard to decide. I resolved not to give in any more but I’m afraid I wouldn’t have been so strong if it would have actually come to tell him so. Fortunately I was preserved from that. It wasn’t too early when I rang him up and the line was occupied. Later my call wasn’t answered. Same…

At home today. Spoke with Leon several times today. Once (?) he was awfully sweet, the kids, his brother’s children seemed to be at his office. It was quite fun to catch him unaware like this. Promised to tell him about my decision early next morning.

My birthday today. Fancy having reached this venerable age. Leon rung me up early in the morning, wishing me the best in a beautiful long speech, which come to an abrupt end, however, when his brother arrived. Anyway I couldn’t speak properly as the family was about. At noon his flowers arrived. I…