Today I feel rotten again with a splitting headache. Can’t decide about my holiday. Balaton is off as Cica returned yesterday. Don’t know what to do. Maybe it is this early rise I had to manage this morning as the Mass for Nora was at 6 a.m. Awful. We were at the cemetery too.

Same Sunday as usual. Church, cemetery, cinema. Against my will was driven into an awful row with poor Mother again. She really lacks all logic. It was she herself who advised me to go abroad as perhaps it will be impossible next year, and now she is as much against it as ever. Now that I registered…

Whit Sunday passed with my sister + family here. The kids were alright. Went to ? in the evening. Expected Iren on Monday, yesterday, but perhaps she didn’t get my card as she didn’t come. So went to the cinema alone. A pity I waited for her, it upset my usual programme, of going to the cemetery.…

A lecture in the Külügyi on Friday. Rather good and short. Was late again. Went to Marietta’s yesterday night. Michael better it seems, though still in bed, but they are starting the massaging, so it means a step towards improvement. I’m glad. I do wonder if the poor boy will be fit for my plans and…

On Sunday Martha + family were here. Little Ervin unwell, so they were some quiter than usually. I quite enjoyed the kids. In the evening the little one gave us quite a fright. He was feverish as he woke up with a start didn’t recognize any of us. Poor kid. He got better later. They went home in a…

The normal programme, cemetery + cinema. The piece Kék róka in the Uránia not very good, at least I didn’t like this version the piece played in the theatre is much better. Found it most disillusioning and disgusting that people nearly cheered when seeing that devil Hitler on the screen. Indeed it…

Told my people I would like to go to England as Beatie wrote the operation is to be very serious. Besides I said I would like to go to Switzerland as I needed a holiday very badly not having had one for so long. These and I don’t know what so upset Mother that she had quite sort of a crying fit and…

Nothing on yesterday. Went to the cemetery + cinema. Awful things happened today. Had to hear quite disgusting things, business, on account of the rival firm. My dear exfriend Leon. Thought it must be his way of revenge so rang him up and told my mind. Like usually, however, he managed to turn the…

Of course I didn’t ‘phone Leon yesterday though I promised to. After all if he is so curious about my welfare he can take the trouble too. Cemetery in the evening met Magdi when coming out. Heared later news of course. Slightly milder than casually. Now at least I have an idea of idle talk.…

I was at a late mass today but didn’t meet Mrs Farkasvölgyi there. Went to the cemetery early in the afternoon. ? has just looked out of his window when I passed but Magdi was not in yet. Mother + little Ervin came, we left together but I left them on the way as she stopped to talk to a friend. The…