What a day. In the morning Leon rang me up and we made an appointment for the evening. Early in the afternoon he rang me up again at least one of the staff in his office did the actual ringing, seems in such cases he is not so shy of phoning, and told me in highly shocked way that he couldn’t come…

We meant to meet after gymn with Leon yesterday but it didn’t come off. Been to cinema to day.  Picture quite alright. Been to Marietta last week but intend going on Thursday again it’s being her name day. Had an awful row at home last week owing to my delicate suggestion of marrying my dear friend…

Today must be called ones of the darkest ones in the history of my (un?)eventful life. Much deserved punishment, revelation of own lack of psychological instinct, proof of right of conservative principles lately slightly neglected, etc. Would like to give myself a good moral kick. Well I deserve…

Another disagreement with dear Leon. Think of putting an end to all, but never really manage to. Lack of moral courage or the real i.e. great feeling I wonder. – Lecture in the Külügyi Társ., Mr Eöttevényi. Spoke about the North Hungary problem, or rather it’s past + present + future prospects. Met…

Quite mad of me, but again I thought I would give Leon a chance and let him accompany me home after gymn. So I rang him up in the afternoon. He recognized my voice and put down the receiver. I know we made appoint of doing so if a ring came at the wrong moment, but this time it was the very very…

 Was silly enough to ring up my dear exfriend last night quite late and to insist that this was the limit. After my brother brought back Magda’s theatre ticket for tonight I was even more silly to try and give the man one more chance. Asked him if he was free for the night which of course he wasn’t.…

Last week was nothing exceptional generally, from personal point of view rather a washout. On Monday morning I found out Leon meant to make an appointment previous day. He should have tried harder. Still felt a bit shaky so stayed at home. Leo went to the cinema. He promised to ring me up but…

Of course I didn’t ‘phone Leon yesterday though I promised to. After all if he is so curious about my welfare he can take the trouble too. Cemetery in the evening met Magdi when coming out. Heared later news of course. Slightly milder than casually. Now at least I have an idea of idle talk.…

Was mad enough to ring up Leon. I’m convinced that if I wouldn’t have made this he wouldn’t have had the idea. Was mad enough to meet him. I hate myself for it all and am thoroughly disgusted. This must stop. I have an idea that this was our last meeting under such certain stances. This all has no…

According to appointment I went to an early cinema. When coming out I expected to find Leon there but he wasn’t. I returned a few times in vain. Tried to phone first in vain, later the apparate got mad somehow and swallowed my money at last. So I gave it up in the end and returned home thoroughly…