Was mad enough to ring up Leon. I’m convinced that if I wouldn’t have made this he wouldn’t have had the idea. Was mad enough to meet him. I hate myself for it all and am thoroughly disgusted. This must stop. I have an idea that this was our last meeting under such certain stances. This all has no…

Still feel shaky. Went to gymn though as I promised to. There was quite a number of us to my greatest surprise. Thought to meet Leon afterwards. As he wasn’t there and I didn’t want to go on the usual roundabout way I rang him up, finding him there just rang off. Of course he recognized my voice.…

According to appointment I went to an early cinema. When coming out I expected to find Leon there but he wasn’t. I returned a few times in vain. Tried to phone first in vain, later the apparate got mad somehow and swallowed my money at last. So I gave it up in the end and returned home thoroughly…

Was awfully hard to decide. I resolved not to give in any more but I’m afraid I wouldn’t have been so strong if it would have actually come to tell him so. Fortunately I was preserved from that. It wasn’t too early when I rang him up and the line was occupied. Later my call wasn’t answered. Same…

At home today. Spoke with Leon several times today. Once (?) he was awfully sweet, the kids, his brother’s children seemed to be at his office. It was quite fun to catch him unaware like this. Promised to tell him about my decision early next morning.

My birthday today. Fancy having reached this venerable age. Leon rung me up early in the morning, wishing me the best in a beautiful long speech, which come to an abrupt end, however, when his brother arrived. Anyway I couldn’t speak properly as the family was about. At noon his flowers arrived. I…

What a day. In the morning Leon rang me up, but we couldn’t speak much. ‘Phone calls came, one after the other after that. I made an awful fool of myself early in the afternoon. Someone phoned and gave no name: thinking it was Leon, who, not recognizing my voice previously nearly rang off called ?…

As I’m afraid yesterday’s fiasco was mainly my fault I rang up Leon this morning. The nasty creature told me to ring off and he would call me in a minute. The “minute” took a long time to pass. So I called him again in the afternoon just before going out but he was busy and wasn’t free in the…

This morning Leon rang me up we made an appointment for the evening which I couldn’t keep however as cooking took ages. I rang him up at night and we had an awfully long talk. At noon I spoke with Vin. on the phone, on account of Mother who wasn’t mind seeing him. He is exactly the same, talks for…

Father quite alright and coming home. Yesterday all day I tried to get Leon but my ringing was not answered. So I tried again this morning and spoke with his brother. Ha asked if he wouldn’t do and I answered, I’m afraid with too much rigour, that he wouldn’t. Well I’m sure no one would. Except…