I’m afraid I couldn’t help showing a bit of my depressed state of mind. Don’t care about anything any longer. Hear that Michael is better and is supposed to go to Füred next month. Have been thinking of going there too, but no one would wash the suspicion off me that I didn’t  go on his account. In…

Dear Dr. L. was there on Saturday night. I’m so glad. What he can’t understand is how on earth did I manage think exactly of him on Saturday afternoon. Can’t decide if it wouldn’t be best from pedagogic point of view to tell him he wasn’t the only one. Or shall I let him go on imagining that by some…

A lecture in the Külügyi on Friday. Rather good and short. Was late again. Went to Marietta’s yesterday night. Michael better it seems, though still in bed, but they are starting the massaging, so it means a step towards improvement. I’m glad. I do wonder if the poor boy will be fit for my plans and…

On Monday my new short coat was delivered but turned out to be a bit tight at the neck so I returned it two days later. Was at the Dr’s in the afternoon later as usual. We had a little chat and he didn’t dare to give an injection prescribed a medicine instead. Ha offered to show me his car and to…

On Monday had a long talk with Martha on the ‘phone result of which was an outing, Atrium, ? is a crowd. The piece is rather funny but slightly mixed. Mr Dudus (?) on the bus when coming home. – On Tuesday went to the National Theatre (Tündöklő Jeromos). The piece a rather modern one, was much…

Had all sorts of misgivings as to the validity of las conf. but think it is just over scrupulousness, will mention all however next time which must be soon. Am terrible shocked to find more and more in my past which should have been told. Awful how one forgets the nastiest little and great sins, not…

The weather is really quite cold, I nearly froze when coming home from church. All these troubles of the Hauer family seem to get on my nerves. I was most awfully depressed all the morning as a matter of fact if I want to be quite open I really shed some true tears on account of the poor boy. Nearly…

Was at the Cong. this morning and hoped to see Marietta. As she wasn’t there had a sort of a tight feeling that something must be wrong. So after various side tracks, going on a wild goose chase after Cica for instance etc. I called at the Hauers only to hear that my M. (?) presumptive was near to…

What a lot I thought about a problem of congratulating dear exfriend Leon on his birthday or not. Really it is not worth wile making a problem of anything. This week passed, to day also and as I already resolved I made not the slightest move towards doing anything of the sort. It is horrid of me I…

Am not quite sure if it was on Monday or Tuesday, but we had an awful row with Mother on a trivial thing. I teared up, so it was my fault, but her hard headedness caused it. I said the car might be changed and she simply stated she won’t have it. Gave no other reason except that it is not her will…