Theatre this evening. Ordasok by Kitsberg. Good but sad. Árva Magda there. Seems funny. Had a friend there at the interval a man whom she asked to go to the Office in the Hospital where her Grandmother is lying. Don’t like her ways. Seems to be so unsettled. This comes from an irregular marriage I…

What a day. In the morning Leon rang me up and we made an appointment for the evening. Early in the afternoon he rang me up again at least one of the staff in his office did the actual ringing, seems in such cases he is not so shy of phoning, and told me in highly shocked way that he couldn’t come…

Went to see Margareth this afternoon. The kids are sweet, she is getting on quite well as a mistress of her house. We had quite a talk. If it comes to it things sound quite different when they are talked about than when only thought of. Told her how I’ve been let down and how I mean to let down…

We meant to meet after gymn with Leon yesterday but it didn’t come off. Been to cinema to day.  Picture quite alright. Been to Marietta last week but intend going on Thursday again it’s being her name day. Had an awful row at home last week owing to my delicate suggestion of marrying my dear friend…

Still can’t get over after effects of shock of previous day. Can’t say I had a sleepless night but certainly found soliloquy at 3 a.m. most uncomfortable. But as I’m alone to blame, and nothing happens by chance, and if it is, and as it is the will of God it must be for the best and it is for the…

Today must be called ones of the darkest ones in the history of my (un?)eventful life. Much deserved punishment, revelation of own lack of psychological instinct, proof of right of conservative principles lately slightly neglected, etc. Would like to give myself a good moral kick. Well I deserve…

Bought some little things for the kids. Went to the dressmaker too. Gymn not so good as usually, was a bit tired I suppose. Found that one of the girls, Alexa K., was leaving a job as English correspondent at a Factory, which I might get owing to excellent English knowledge. 300 P-s a month. Quite…

A busy day. I had to go the District Committee on account of our machines. Had to wait for ages for one of the engineers. When arriving home Bözsi, whom I made friends with at the cooking course, ‘phoned me with the astonishing news that they were separating with her husband. As she seemed to be the…

Nasty weather today. Had another talk on the phone with Leon last night. This morning he rang me up. In the evening I meant to go to cinema, but talked it over with him. Sheer madness and even more. It must be definitely stopped especially as he thinks that marriage is a great ….. (empty space) In…

Father slightly better after our visit to the Hospital. Dr. Hempel still not overinformative. Means to leave everything to the next operation and Father’s previous stay at their place. It seems Karlsbad will be off after all. I wonder. No sign of Leon. Of course I’ll leave it at that. He must make…