Last week was nothing exceptional generally, from personal point of view rather a washout. On Monday morning I found out Leon meant to make an appointment previous day. He should have tried harder. Still felt a bit shaky so stayed at home. Leo went to the cinema. He promised to ring me up but…

Of course I didn’t ‘phone Leon yesterday though I promised to. After all if he is so curious about my welfare he can take the trouble too. Cemetery in the evening met Magdi when coming out. Heared later news of course. Slightly milder than casually. Now at least I have an idea of idle talk.…

Was mad enough to ring up Leon. I’m convinced that if I wouldn’t have made this he wouldn’t have had the idea. Was mad enough to meet him. I hate myself for it all and am thoroughly disgusted. This must stop. I have an idea that this was our last meeting under such certain stances. This all has no…

Still feel shaky. Went to gymn though as I promised to. There was quite a number of us to my greatest surprise. Thought to meet Leon afterwards. As he wasn’t there and I didn’t want to go on the usual roundabout way I rang him up, finding him there just rang off. Of course he recognized my voice.…

According to appointment I went to an early cinema. When coming out I expected to find Leon there but he wasn’t. I returned a few times in vain. Tried to phone first in vain, later the apparate got mad somehow and swallowed my money at last. So I gave it up in the end and returned home thoroughly…

It was pouring yesterday and we didn’t meet with Leon though we thought to do so. When I spoke with him at night however I had to find out that he wasn’t out either. I won’t do such mad things ever for anyone again. Tonight’s meeting was slightly different from what we planned at least he. I rang…

A busy day. I had to go the District Committee on account of our machines. Had to wait for ages for one of the engineers. When arriving home Bözsi, whom I made friends with at the cooking course, ‘phoned me with the astonishing news that they were separating with her husband. As she seemed to be the…

Being quite curious how did it happen on Saturday, I rang up Leon very early. He couldn’t speak much being in hurry(?), just told me that his brother was called in to military service in spite of being a 50 percent invalid and having gone through a serious operation quite recently. They were trying…

The usual Sunday. Went to confession which did a lot of good. Never again will I do anything like happened in my “dark” past. Couldn’t speak with Leon all day. I’m fed up with the man. Saw Azurexpress in the Kamara in the…

Was awfully hard to decide. I resolved not to give in any more but I’m afraid I wouldn’t have been so strong if it would have actually come to tell him so. Fortunately I was preserved from that. It wasn’t too early when I rang him up and the line was occupied. Later my call wasn’t answered. Same…