Tried to speak with Leon today before going to gymn. Our talk had to have an abrupt ending.

Nothing on yesterday. Went to the cemetery + cinema. Awful things happened today. Had to hear quite disgusting things, business, on account of the rival firm. My dear exfriend Leon. Thought it must be his way of revenge so rang him up and told my mind. Like usually, however, he managed to turn the…

What a day. In the morning Leon rang me up and we made an appointment for the evening. Early in the afternoon he rang me up again at least one of the staff in his office did the actual ringing, seems in such cases he is not so shy of phoning, and told me in highly shocked way that he couldn’t come…

Went to see Margareth this afternoon. The kids are sweet, she is getting on quite well as a mistress of her house. We had quite a talk. If it comes to it things sound quite different when they are talked about than when only thought of. Told her how I’ve been let down and how I mean to let down…

We meant to meet after gymn with Leon yesterday but it didn’t come off. Been to cinema to day.  Picture quite alright. Been to Marietta last week but intend going on Thursday again it’s being her name day. Had an awful row at home last week owing to my delicate suggestion of marrying my dear friend…

Still can’t get over after effects of shock of previous day. Can’t say I had a sleepless night but certainly found soliloquy at 3 a.m. most uncomfortable. But as I’m alone to blame, and nothing happens by chance, and if it is, and as it is the will of God it must be for the best and it is for the…

Another disagreement with dear Leon. Think of putting an end to all, but never really manage to. Lack of moral courage or the real i.e. great feeling I wonder. – Lecture in the Külügyi Társ., Mr Eöttevényi. Spoke about the North Hungary problem, or rather it’s past + present + future prospects. Met…

Nothing special last week. Been to a lecture in the Association of Foreign Affaires. Most interesting. Met an old admirer too amongst them, who proposed to show me the dark side of our town, most appropriately, the slums. – Poor old Miss Jerstandl (?) next door died on Monday, the men, Colonel +…

Quite mad of me, but again I thought I would give Leon a chance and let him accompany me home after gymn. So I rang him up in the afternoon. He recognized my voice and put down the receiver. I know we made appoint of doing so if a ring came at the wrong moment, but this time it was the very very…

 Was silly enough to ring up my dear exfriend last night quite late and to insist that this was the limit. After my brother brought back Magda’s theatre ticket for tonight I was even more silly to try and give the man one more chance. Asked him if he was free for the night which of course he wasn’t.…