Too lazy to get up early, went to the noon mass. A good walk to the cemetery and the church which intrigued me since long. It looked quite near the East Station but was a quarter of an hour’s distance quite near the first cross road leading home. – Went to Martha’s party a bit tired, managed to be…

A mad day again. At noon I decided to ring Vin. up and inquire when am I to pay a visit in case he is put under arrest. The political association he wanted to join, Szálasi’s little party has been … …. and put under the supervision of the police. If Vin. didn’t mean it as a joke it was a silly idea…

What a dreadful day. I felt out of sorts the whole day, sort of a presentiment I suppose. Even yesterday’s aviation lecture didn’t keep me cheered up. By the way we received the photo taken of us. Leo rang me up in the morning, I wanted to talk to him from the office. I don’t think we were…

Rang up Leo this morning as I promised I would. We spoke on Friday afternoon, he started that little misunderstanding of last week all over again. We made a point of spending Sunday afternoon together if he’d be at home. As it was he was waiting for a ‘phone call to ask him to Vienna: Well I phoned…

Went to see Vincent at noon. What a failure again. We could hardly talk when he was asked out to a patient who happened to be a girl with a man. Vin. asked me to wait. My patience lasted exactly fifteen minutes. Then I got near explosion + told him I’d go. Couldn’t tell him half of what I meant to…

Today I meant to see Vincent in his Clinic but somehow didn’t feel like going there after general hours. Might seem too obvious. I’ll go tomorrow morning, however, and register for those lectures on aviation at the same time if they won’t laugh me in the Népműv. Office. I think I’ll take it up after…

Decided to ring up the Mortally Offended one. He took up the receiver but did not speak to me. I, silly creature rang off only to ring him up, so long as the automation didn’t keep, or rather swallow up my money. Two hard hits for it’s pain. I might have known that this would be the result. At noon…

I have an idea that after all he was right and feel simply miserable. Rang up Vincent to ask what he could be doing next day. I simply can’t stand going to the cinema alone and feel wretched all day. Of course he just half made an appointment. When there is trouble one always has to face it alone.…

The cinema was an utter failure. Again I was the first to arrive + felt a fool. This will have to be ended, I’m letting myself go. The film was a failure too. It was very interesting and well acted, but on account of the topic itself there was not the necessary unity to be found, it was falling to…

Changed those shoes for a pair of lower heels. Vince phoned this afternoon. – Went to the cinema saw “Mai lányok”, a light sort of play but amusing.