Today’s gymn a wash out. It was raining hard, met a man on the bus going to the Association for Foreign Affairs. He seemed to know me. If I wouldn’t have known I met him there I might have been thinking as hard as anything without finding out same. We finished earlier than usually. It was pouring…

Went to the National Theatre this evening. Iljin’s Nagy Két Katalin [Két cárnő] was on. Quite good. Especially the scenes at the end. Magdi was in evening dress. I’m afraid I won’t put on with this slightly biting matter about everyone. It was  finished quite early. Spoke with Leon this morning.

What a day. In the morning Leon rang me up, but we couldn’t speak much. ‘Phone calls came, one after the other after that. I made an awful fool of myself early in the afternoon. Someone phoned and gave no name: thinking it was Leon, who, not recognizing my voice previously nearly rang off called ?…

I was at a late mass today but didn’t meet Mrs Farkasvölgyi there. Went to the cemetery early in the afternoon. ? has just looked out of his window when I passed but Magdi was not in yet. Mother + little Ervin came, we left together but I left them on the way as she stopped to talk to a friend. The…

 Things seem to get every more serious. If I would be a man I would have to report at once it seems for military service. I wish I would be a man. Vin’s influence seem to have lasted in such degree, that although I meant to ring up Leon after office hours when he phoned me earlier I didn’t recognize…

Yesterday’s cooking took ages. It was 9.10 when I left. Too awful. Bözsi absent. – Today Vin. phoned me, we made an appointment for the evening. I got rather nervous about the whole thing stage fright I suppose and would have liked to bolt (?) in the end, didn’t want to meet him. So I went to the…

There was quite a lot to do all day. I went to the gymn classes in the evening. The place where R. Margit moved to is rather far near my old school. It is rather ? Emmy fell over my neck. I was welcomed most warmly. At last a place where I’m appreciated. I heared all sorts of rumours which make me…

Tried to speak with Leon again this morning but wasn’t answered fortunately. For not much later Father was called by the firm over which we had our latest disagreement. I don’t know any longer who is right, for this time I heared quite another talk. In the afternoon I was out on business. Partly…

As I’m afraid yesterday’s fiasco was mainly my fault I rang up Leon this morning. The nasty creature told me to ring off and he would call me in a minute. The “minute” took a long time to pass. So I called him again in the afternoon just before going out but he was busy and wasn’t free in the…

Had a long talk after mass with Leon according to which we made a rather ambiguous appointment which naturally didn’t come off. I was about 40 minutes late so I’m not sure if it was not my fault he might have had the same of waiting, if it mattered him, however. It quite spoilt my evening and even…