Had a short note from Leo saying he is mortally hurt. I was prepared for something of the sort. Rang him up later, but he was as rude as ever, spoke in very much the same way he did at Xmas time when he wasn’t in the right either. He was more than rude using all the slighting remarks he has a good…

Bought a red frock this morning. Martha and Kids were here. Wrote a letter to Leo yesterday and included price of cinema ticket.

The cinema was an utter failure. Again I was the first to arrive + felt a fool. This will have to be ended, I’m letting myself go. The film was a failure too. It was very interesting and well acted, but on account of the topic itself there was not the necessary unity to be found, it was falling to…

We went shopping with Martha, bought myself a new hat, but somehow the colour doesn’t suit me. – This morning I was quite upset as I had an appointment with Leo on the phone and he didn’t ring me up in time. I just put a cross beside his name in my calendar in various places to signify that now he…

What a day. I had three rows with two Jews, perfectly horrid ones too, but made it up with Leo with whom I spoke through the ‘phone before going out. According to it he is to ring me up on Friday at eight, what an unearthly hour. If he fails me this time he’ll stop existing for me in future. This…

I was mad to believe I ever meant anything to that man. I suppose I should be glad that I don’t. Of course he didn’t ring me up. Someone ‘phoned at ten when I was out, I thought it might have been him. To make sure I rang him up. He was busy at the time. No he knew he should have ‘phoned me it was…

Church again, first Friday. I arranged to wait for Leo’s phone call tomorrow morning.

Late for church again had to wait for another mass, was quite frozen by the end. Martha + family here. I’ve chillblains, they’re so tiresome. Will have to ring that awful person up. Don’t like it at all it is his turn, he didn’t answer our invitation of yesterday. I’m afraid he is giving himself…

Irene called. Nothing of L. so far. I’ll keep strong. – Martha dropped in, we had a good laugh. – Before going out suddenly couldn’t resist the temptation of ringing L<eo?> up + asking if he was the one who tried to find me. He wasn’t. But our little talk quite put me out again. Serves me…

Someone rang me up while out. I suppose it was L. I’ll be strong + not try to get him on the line. – Spoke with Vali, just going out for a walk with her brother. Half promised to meet them at the Spolarich at night. But didn’t eventually. Was in the Bank, bought few things. – At the gym. class there…