Went to that carnival party after all. Répássy came to fetch me. Some friends of my brother were there too. We had quite a nice time. Came home at 2.30 a.m.

Went to see Vincent at noon. What a failure again. We could hardly talk when he was asked out to a patient who happened to be a girl with a man. Vin. asked me to wait. My patience lasted exactly fifteen minutes. Then I got near explosion + told him I’d go. Couldn’t tell him half of what I meant to…

Today I meant to see Vincent in his Clinic but somehow didn’t feel like going there after general hours. Might seem too obvious. I’ll go tomorrow morning, however, and register for those lectures on aviation at the same time if they won’t laugh me in the Népműv. Office. I think I’ll take it up after…

Still awfully happy about that letter of yesterday, but am having misgivings again. He writes he is occupied until 10 every night but didn’t try to make an appointment for Sunday either. If he would be interested he would try to see me more often, speak with me more frequently and altogether would…

I had an awful morning after an equally awful night. I simply can’t understand how can I be such friends with the one while I’m worried to death about the other. Every ring of the ‘phone wrentched my nerves, I always expected Leo to ‘phone and tell me off. At noon however I received a letter from…

Decided to ring up the Mortally Offended one. He took up the receiver but did not speak to me. I, silly creature rang off only to ring him up, so long as the automation didn’t keep, or rather swallow up my money. Two hard hits for it’s pain. I might have known that this would be the result. At noon…

I have an idea that after all he was right and feel simply miserable. Rang up Vincent to ask what he could be doing next day. I simply can’t stand going to the cinema alone and feel wretched all day. Of course he just half made an appointment. When there is trouble one always has to face it alone.…

Went to confession this morning and came home rather late. My whole morning was taken up by the house etc. At noon Dr. K of previous day came, found Nora in a much better state. – My red frock arrived too but I’m not oversatisfied with it. It is too long and doesn’t fit perfectly. – Won’t buy a…

Had a short note from Leo saying he is mortally hurt. I was prepared for something of the sort. Rang him up later, but he was as rude as ever, spoke in very much the same way he did at Xmas time when he wasn’t in the right either. He was more than rude using all the slighting remarks he has a good…

Bought a red frock this morning. Martha and Kids were here. Wrote a letter to Leo yesterday and included price of cinema ticket.