Opera night. Went to a performance of Beethoven’s Fidelio. Was afraid to meet Vin. there, but didn’t see, them. The performance very good. Dresses nice. My place good. Had to go home on foot.

Well I am non-plussed. Had a suspicion since some time not a long one though, that some sort of a female is after my brother. It was her birthday, they said the 34th, which was held at the foaer (foyer?) a place near Kispest. We went to fetch her at their house. I nearly had a fit when she came.…

Late again for gymn. Dressmaker the innocent came of it. Found out that Emma is to have a baby. That is why she takes gymn so easy lately. Noticed since a time that she looks sort of bewildered and helpless. Much younger. Was asked to a party by dear brother for tomorrow.

Went to an English lecture by a Sir Charles Petrie. It was not very interesting, though in the end he made some remarks which were most enlightening. The man reminded me of our dear Her Hittler (sic!) exciter that was. Tall, sleek and dark. Voice good, way of speaking rather nice. People here are…

Nothing on yesterday. Went to the cemetery + cinema. Awful things happened today. Had to hear quite disgusting things, business, on account of the rival firm. My dear exfriend Leon. Thought it must be his way of revenge so rang him up and told my mind. Like usually, however, he managed to turn the…

Still feel excited. Made up my mind about Marietta too though wasn’t sure if people wouldn’t be about to spoil situation. To her I played again the courageous though slightly broken hearted one who meant to do what is right all along (which is true, at least mostly) and so let herself in for…

What a day. In the morning Leon rang me up and we made an appointment for the evening. Early in the afternoon he rang me up again at least one of the staff in his office did the actual ringing, seems in such cases he is not so shy of phoning, and told me in highly shocked way that he couldn’t come…

Went to see Margareth this afternoon. The kids are sweet, she is getting on quite well as a mistress of her house. We had quite a talk. If it comes to it things sound quite different when they are talked about than when only thought of. Told her how I’ve been let down and how I mean to let down…

We meant to meet after gymn with Leon yesterday but it didn’t come off. Been to cinema to day.  Picture quite alright. Been to Marietta last week but intend going on Thursday again it’s being her name day. Had an awful row at home last week owing to my delicate suggestion of marrying my dear friend…

Still can’t get over after effects of shock of previous day. Can’t say I had a sleepless night but certainly found soliloquy at 3 a.m. most uncomfortable. But as I’m alone to blame, and nothing happens by chance, and if it is, and as it is the will of God it must be for the best and it is for the…