The shock I meant to mention was this. Dr Laki (?) asked me if I know the latest at which I suggested the little *Maris* (?) then he told we must part. I had the sinking feeling that he was going to get married. What a mad idea to think of that at all an to be disappointed about it. I was ashamed of…

This was a surprising day. Full of shocks. In the morning went to have our driving licences changed. A young policeman helped me with my things and in the and in the end wouldn’t accept the tip I meant to give him. I was nearly ashamed. But really one never knows with the people. So that was an…

I’m afraid I couldn’t help showing a bit of my depressed state of mind. Don’t care about anything any longer. Hear that Michael is better and is supposed to go to Füred next month. Have been thinking of going there too, but no one would wash the suspicion off me that I didn’t  go on his account. In…

Same Sunday as usual. Church, cemetery, cinema. Against my will was driven into an awful row with poor Mother again. She really lacks all logic. It was she herself who advised me to go abroad as perhaps it will be impossible next year, and now she is as much against it as ever. Now that I registered…

Brother + Father went to take over the new car and I went to have my passport renewed. The friend to whom I went was out so it had to be postponed.

As it was 1st Friday and last Cong. meeting I went there, but it was so late that I had to take a taxi. It was a good meeting. Wanted to go to the Dr’s, but he wasn’t in by the time I got there. Anyway at least he knows it is not my fault.

We planned to go to the swimming bath with the little English girl next door but she came I to say she couldn’t come so I went alone. Asked Cica to come with me but she couldn’t. We went part of the way together. There were only a fey in the Champagne Bath, and not many in the other either. Am I…