Alone all week. The operation was done this morning it is a success. According to the Drs. Father feeling well, but I felt faint this morning when I saw all the blood etc. and couldn’t bear the smell. Such a nerve reaching odour. I wasn’t feeling so ill since ages. Nearly thought I couldn’t go home, but the affaire passed like in usual cases, so in future I must remember not to let go, because it makes it only slightly worse, but passes all the same. Silly of me to have lost control in such a way. Mother unwell las week, most of the time.